Monday, October 18, 2010

Dear Ricky,

Hi baby. Today was a hard day for me, I was just in a funk :( I can't believe tomorrow would have been your 28 th birthday! Ironically tomorrow is when I start my counseling. I miss you so very much, I find myself wanting to call you, and than I realize I can't! I find that I am jealous when I see a young Daddy with their daughter. I don't mean to be like that, it just breaks my heart that Kennedy is going to miss out on that! I love you more than you ever will know, and I just wish you would have believed that... I am going to go back to school, and I am starting to go back to church (which has been good so far). I am trying to live one day at a time, but I wonder how tomorrow will affect me, how the holidays will play out. Just curious, I guess... So many people keep telling me how strong I am, but I do not feel strong at all, a piece of me is broken, that I am not sure can ever be fixed. They say time heals all wounds, & I suppose they are right, it just doesn't feel that way. I love and miss you more than words could ever describe.
Love always and forever your wife,
Ang

1 comment:

  1. DEEP WOUNDS NEVER HEAL THEY SCAR...THEY EVENTUALLY CLOSE AND THE SCAR IS LEFT FOR ETERNAL MEMORY.
    I KNOW EVERY SCAR THAT I HAVE I CAN TELL YOU WHAT CAUSED IT AND HOW I LEARNED FROM IT.
    THINK OF YOUR SCARS AS ROAD PATHS TO YOUR ACHIEVEMENTS. WITH OUT THEM WE WOULD HAVE NO DREAMS.KRISTY-

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