Dear Ricky,

Hi baby. As I sit here and write this, it is hard for me to grasp that you have been gone nine months now. So much has happened since you past away.As you know, the biggest change for me, was quitting my job. That has been so good for Kennedy & I. I have had so much fun with her, she loves that Mommy is home with her. Also the other changes that have come is my new place. It is so nice, to have a place of my own. I think you would have liked it here. It's a quite little place. Bean & I just stay to our selves here, but we like it. Can you believe I made all eighteen miles? I was a little surprised, but knew you, Ronnie & Jesse were with me every mile! I am doing good things! I am not saying that I do not have my moments, where it seems like everything is crashing down on me, but I know God is with me. Church has been amazing, I have been going to bible study and met some amazing ladies there. You want to hear something funny? Well at least I thought it was funny. Some people have said I am their inspiration. I never thought that would be a word used to describe me. Honestly all I do is live! I am happy I have reestablished my relationship with God. That does not mean I am perfect, or have not made some mistakes, since you past, but I am working on it as best as I can. Did I tell you next year's overnight will be in San Francisco June ninth and tenth! I am already super excited about it! I will be doing a community walk October first at Green Lake with my friend Marian for the American Foundation For Suicide Prevention. That will be a lot less stressful as far as fund raising for it, and not as many miles, only a 3 or 5 K walk. Also on a sad note, I have learned of at least four more suicides since I came back from NYC. Being a survivor of suicide loss is a hell, I wish upon no one. There is not a day that goes by that I do not think of you. I love and miss you so very much. I will always wonder why you left the stage in the middle of a song... Your beautiful song. I love and miss you. Love always n forever your wife, Ang