Hi baby. Today has been a little easier. I had hard time sleeping this morning, I woke up around four in the morning, but was able to go back to sleep for a while. You came to me in a dream, it was odd, but beautiful... I miss you so much! I wanted to let you know I have been thinking about Kennedy's next b-day (the first one you will not be at), and I'm gonna make it extra special for her.Everyone keeps telling me how strong I am, I feel they are wrong... They don't see me break down, and wishing you were here. That at some point I feel like I could have done so much more to be a better wife to you, that I ultimately let you down in the end.... While I know it wasn't any one's fault but your own, that in the end you made the final decision, it is a part of the grieving process for me. You left me, and I will never understand why you did it.... I'm sorry I let you down....
Love always and forever
your wife,
Angela
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