Hi baby.... I already took your flowers to the funeral home. Against my better judgement, I went to see you. Now that image is forever burnt in my brain. The last time I saw in your dress blues, was when we lived in Yuma (and unfortunately it was not for your Marine core ball). There is a lot of anger on my part, it seems that people only want to focus on you being a Daddy, son, and brother, no matter what our issues were, you were still my husband!!! So for those people who want to focus on your parents, I get it, but it doesn't mean I am not upset!!! So many people are grieving for you, I understand it's just not my loss, but a lot of peoples! I am hurt beyond words, and trying not to take things personally, but you of all people know my heart better than anyone ever did, and that is not the way I am processing all of this. I hope you can rest now, and know you were my heart and soul... I love you and miss you more than words could ever describe.
Love always and forever your wife,
Ang
Oh Ang~ I am so sorry you are going through all of this right now... You were his beautiful wife and you are just as important as everyone else!! YOU are the one who will be raising his beautiful daughter!!! I love you mama, and I can't wait to see you tomorrow.
ReplyDeleteWow momma i love you so much....this gave me chills, but honey u have all your amazing friends to help u through this u are a strong women i love you very much.....
ReplyDeleteAngela, I read all the sympathy for you and had almost the same feelings as you just now expressed. I don't think people mean to make either one of us feel that way. I know you loved him as much as you had love to give and I am so sorry for your loss, but people reach out to the one they know with their condonlences. Maybe you just have to focus your anger at life right now at something. Love, Mom
ReplyDeleteAngela, you are doing an amazing job with all of this. As i told you many times you are being very strong........just remember the strongest person is stronger for having weakness,please don't be afraid or ashamed to have "weak" moments because even durring your "weakest moment" you're still stronger than most I KNOW.
ReplyDeleteTo RickY: Tomorrow is a day i never imagined i would be doing, going to (your) a friends funeral. I promise to you that i will not be able to hold back my emotions during this! Yes sorry to say... I am upset with you, Confused by your decision, and question your reasons for doing this. I am Upset with you, I am Angry, I am your friend, I am always going to think of you and your smartass remarks (at least it will make me smile), I am going to miss you!
I AM ALWAYS GOING TO BE THERE FOR YOUR WIFE AND DAUGHTER. THAT I PROMISE WITH ALL MY HEART.
I hope you know i say all of this because i know it's ok.You only feel these emotions when someone effects you, That you did. You were an awesome person and now an awesome Angel.Take care of My Baby Isaac as I will take care of YOurs.
Love ya Ricky RIP
Angela... We grieve for ALL of you... None more than the other. Sometimes I think it's easier to send condolances to the ones that you know as its hard to express Grief to Ones you don't.
ReplyDeleteDeath is confusing & hurtful as it is... Ricky's all the more. Surround yourself with those people who Lift you up & help you to be Strong. Let the Negative stay outside that Bubble.
Let Kennedy be the glue that binds you to your family and to Ricky's. That is his Legacy.
My Thoughts are with You....