Hi baby. I am having a good day today. I talked to a woman yesterday before I started my shift, and she had asked me if I was the one who lost my husband. I replied yes, she than explained to me that her brother committed suicide three months ago. I wanted to cry for her, and just hug her for hours. I feel bad for her, because she has no real support system. Her own mother thinks the brother died of a heart attack (broke my heart, when she told me her story). She said her husband, doesn't understand why she still cries (three months later).... I explained to her that I have been through this three times in my life (the first was my cousin (I didn't know him (so I had no sense of guilt, or any of the questions, than my best friend Jesse (wow - it took me a long time, and some professional help to get over that, than you... and unlike Jesse, I know a part of me is broken, damaged, but there is a light inside of me that makes me get up every morning, and take care of our beautiful little girl). I hope she will go to support groups, and get some help, a suicide, I explained is one of the hardest things to get over (you never fully understand as to why)... I love and miss you more than words can say.
Love always n forever your wife,
Ang
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