Dear Ricky,

Hi baby, today was a good day. Since your death, I have met so many more survivors of suicide loss. My friend Michael ( he was the DJ at our wedding) was kind enough to donate his time to DJ my silent auction benefit to help raise funds for the walk in NY ( donations for the American Foundation For Suicide Prevention - Wallk Through The Darkness Overnight). I am getting a bit annoyed ( the damn place has Wendy by herself - when she's on my team, I know it will work out, but you know me Patience is not my strong point). Tomorrow is Bonnie's funeral, I am still shocked she is gone. This year has been filled with so much pain and sadness, I hope 2011 will get better! You want to hear a funny story. Kennedy apparently wanted something, that was put away, and was bugging Michael for it. She comes in my room, crying, saying he is mean, he's an ass hole. I looked at her, and asked if she just said ass hole, and she said uh hu! I tried so hard not to laugh ( it was kinda cute). Not a day goes by, that I do not think about you, and miss you, wishing you were here to experience all the craziness that is my life. I love and miss you. Love always n forever your wife, Ang