Hey babe, it's been a couple of days since I wrote you last. Nick & Julie got married last night (it was a beautiful wedding). I bet you would be surprised to know I went to church today (that was int resting). I think I might go back. It was nice to be around Uncle Izzy, Auntie Sherry, Jen & Mike (even if only for an hr). Kennedy was amazing, she sat there the whole time, and was such a good girl. I might look into Sunday school for her. I sure do miss you, the anger part is still pretty bad, I am trying to get a grip on it, learn to forgive you. I know they say time will heal all wounds, but I wonder if I will ever get back to being "normal" ever again. I try to make jokes, but you know it just doesn't seem to make me happy. I am thinking about going to school (a good friend really encouraged me today), I know you would be proud of me, if I went back & made a better life for Kennedy & myself. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! It's not fair!!!!!!! This is me breaking down, feeling broken, wishing with my heart of hearts that things would have been different. I really did you love you, & my wish is that you can see my tears I am crying right now, and feel all this pain, and hurt I have in my heart & soul. That one day I know will lessen, but never go away. SO yes I blame you right now, I am mad, I can not forgive you, I do not believe you were in your right mind... Or you would not have left Kennedy like this!!!!!!!!
Love always and forever your wife,
Ang
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