Hi baby... I suppose today was a good day, a bit on the frustrating side (but none the less good). Kennedy's field trip was yesterday (at Maris Farms) she had so much fun! I did get teary eyed (while we were on the hay ride), I had wished so much that you could have been there physically! Yesterday while cleaning/organizing our room, I came a couple of cards that you gave me... They were filled with so much love, and I just wonder why if you loved me so much, and felt you could tell me anything, why you couldn't come to me NOW!!! I know you felt this time was the end of us, & maybe it would have been (no one knows the answer to that question now). I do know, no matter what I loved you, and I miss you a whole lot. Today a friend of mine told me I was strong, I told him (when this first happened) how it angered me, that people would say that, now I realize I am STRONG! I have my moments where I loose it (normally behind closed doors)and I know with time and patience, I will forgive you. I can't believe our baby girl will be 4, and how it breaks my heart you will not be here to celebrate it with us!She really does love you! We still have the memorial board I made up in the living room, & when Kennedy gets ready for bed, she puts whatever toys she is playing with over by the board (and I tell her the toys will be fine, because daddy is watching over them).I love and miss you baby.
Love always and forever your wife,
Ang
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